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30 December 2007 Sunday

tired!

yes, i'm tired. tired of running around doing so many things, trying to multi-task all at once. i'm tired of school, tired of youth council, tired of toastmasters. i'm tired of going out. i really need some time for myself. i haven't really had a proper period of rest for a long while. but i enjoy camps. adventure camps that is. because i can escape from reality. sometimes, i wish i could switch off my phone for an entire week and just rot and home, not talking to people. coz once u start talking to people, expectations form naturally. and these expectations become responsibility that has to be borne.

to tell u the truth, i really wanna quit toastmasters as the vp now. i can't stand the irresponsibility of the president and the people, and the rejection to hold certain appointments during each meeting. they have no idea how much effort goes into calling them. and poor auntie jocelyn. no one can understand how much time, sweat and blood she has shed and lost all for toastmasters. yet how little recognition she receives.

church is driving me crazy as well. especially some people. irresponsibility comes into the picture once again. and the response that i get is horrible as well. the world youth day thing is not working at all. the whole group is too big. it is too difficult for us to handle.... i'm really confused by it all. the flights are not even settled! IRRESPONSIBILITY! i really don't want to go for the youth council retreat. i don't want to take on any roles.

i just need some time for myself. i really do. my phone just keeps ringing with smses. damn it!

hopefully, i can leave enough time for a new found interest, npcc.... but i'm not hopeful....

snoopy lim @ 7:23pm

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